[Current Condition]: In Total Shock

When I love a person, I find it to be a surprise when the person I love, loves me just as much. I mentioned Khris to you didn’t I? Of course I have. He’s been the only thing on my mind lately. Well, as you may have known, I was friend-zoned by him. I was discouraged as hell, but after speaking with my best-friend Sammie, she gave me some encouragement, and I decided to stay in there and just be the best friend I could be to him.

As our conversations got deeper and deeper, I was able to pick up on some subtle hints of flirtation coming from him. Mind you, he is a hard one to crack. I didn’t know if I should call him out on it or not, but I eventually took the risk of calling him out on it, only to find out that he was blatantly flirting with me, to pass a signal. How in the world did he hide his emotions and feelings for me like that, especially when I was so vocal with my feelings for him?

Needless to say, I was incredibly shocked, and I was also at a lost for words, as he  started to get more vocal with his feelings for me. I was happy before, but after learning that someone that I love so much, loves me back just as much, just made me feel on top of the world. It was one of those Kanye West moments, where he said, “You can’t tell me NOTHIN’!” Haha! That’s exactly how I felt!

Now I just wish I could touch him, hold his hand, stare into his eyes, and tell him face-to-face how much he means to me. I want to kiss his lips, and fall asleep in his arms, but one step at a time lol. But yeah, I couldn’t be happier. I’m so glad that someone was finally able to teach me what love really is. This is the only thing my life was missing. I plan to hold on to this feeling for a long time.