[Current Condition: Why God Why?]

You know, sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and want to break it because of this caramel complexion that I am forced to wear permanently. It bothers me sometimes, because when I look at a nice redbone or something, I think to myself, damn, why did I have to look this way? Why couldn’t I be light like that? 

I’ve desperately tried to train my mind to think that being darker is beautiful, but I often times find it hard to believe that for myself. :( I try to keep my mind off of it, but I can’t help the image I see in the mirror everyday. I hate it. I don’t hate it enough to bleach my skin or anything extreme like that, but it sure as hell sucks being darker.